you were like an angel to me

[doveturneddestroyer]

darling, i hope you know that i would drop anything to give you what you want. the distance and the time stacked between us don't matter anymore. we haven't spoken in years but i would still take anything you have to give. it doesn't matter to me if it's just the same cautious glances in the back of a car or if you just decide to give in and take pity on my forever lamenting heart.

whether i'm sending you messages or reading between the lines of vague love letters i was too cowardly to send makes no difference to me. love sticks forever sickly within my aortae and it leaks out filtered when i pick my face to bleed the morning after. it shows purple, blackened and rotted, through my skin while i puzzle over the source of your latest phantom bruise to my ego.

i'm not taking pleasure in her misery, i'm celebrating the fact that i was right. she got everything she deserved because she didn't deserve you.